**Found this in the drafts in Sept of 2022. I decided to post. Two versions existed - this being the copy. I am leaving the writing intact, as it was found (aside from this BTS insight). One of the many reasons it never saw the light of day was that I wanted to include images from Deviantart (hence the 15-year photo dumping) and never got around to adding them (as it happens). Somehow, the writing, although unfinished, feels complete. The last grouping of photos are taken from the Deviantart account. Thanks for reading.
I always want to write one of these but never really quite know how to start them or what to say. How do you find the correct pattern of words to be witty and insightful? I sure don’t have an answer, but I am sure Google has the answer. googles: How do I properly write a witty & insightful blog post that people will love and I will become famous for?
Before I begin a 15-year photo dumping journey on all of you - may I gently suggest to any artist friends -- please look through your art. Just in case you’ve forgotten how far you’ve come as a creator or if you need some inspiration. Do yourself the favor - of giving yourself proof that you’re better now than when you started.
Personally - I feel like I am filled with more ambition & creativity than ever – but simultaneously completely devoid of drive and motivation. I know that’s a minor case of the depression talking – but that doesn’t make me feel any less bad about it.
We are only exactly seven days into this new year, a new decade – and I am most thankful for that alone. The end of the year always makes me an incredibly reflective person. It’s my birthday, the holidays, and the new year - all in a two-week time span. It’s a little underwhelming, mostly overwhelming. At the end of 2019 - I felt like I was drowning in my rumination.
An incredible amount has happened in the last 10 years. Lots of travel (SO MUCH OF IT), and lots of heartbreak and loss that have come in all shapes and sizes. Every year has made me a better person than the year before it. However - that still doesn’t stop the waves of shame, and guilt I face each year about all the things I haven’t done. Seems silly - when I can look around me and easily be thankful for so many things.
